Behind the Throne room runs a river, I call it the river of living water. I bathe in it often, especially
after I have sinned or need to be refreshed in the spirit and sometimes both. This river leads to
waterfalls, ponds, lakes, and healing pools (all dealt with in the member section). There is so much
to discover in heaven, no wonder we need an eternity there.

Again, I have had many experiences in this river, but I want to be vulnerable here and take you
to the most graphic of my experiences so that you can begin to understand the depth of Our
Father’s love for us. I like Paul, had a thorn in my side, after the dark night of my soul (a beautiful yet
depressing read if you can handle St. John of the cross); I fell to the sin again.

I have mentioned my strategy before, I have learned it from my toddler and from the Court of
Accusations (see Door 3), acknowledge your sin and repent of it as soon as you can. Because the
longer you suffer in silence the bigger the sitting duck you are for the enemy. After confessing my
sin and repenting, whether that involves getting a verdict at the court, cleansing my soul gates,
smashing false altars, rebuking spirits, or just going to the foot of the cross, I often dive into the
living river of forgiveness.

After this fall, I found myself in the river throwing up in the river, almost as a type of rebellion. It
was interesting to me that I didn’t get booted out of heaven but one thing I have realized is that
when there is a new experience your soul needs to live through to heal, heaven will not boot you
out. But instead, will, in fact, heal you from the soul wound by creating a new experience that will
over-ride the old neural pathways of trauma forming a new bond of trust with our Creator.

And because I was not booted out, I kept on throwing up. The more I threw up, the stronger the
river current became … the stronger the river current became the less affect my dirty vomit had in
the pure waters of forgiveness. I was throwing up so much in heaven that my physical insides on
earth started to hurt. Finally, after what seemed like hours, I realized it was futile. With what little
energy I had left I dragged my body to the riverbed. It was there that my beautiful mother Wisdom
came to comfort me.

What was the point of this graphic lesson? Firstly, it is to bring to you the truth of heaven. There
is NO SIN big enough to separate you from the love of the Father. The only thing that will separate
you from Him is you listening to the enemy telling you that you are not worthy. If you believe that
lie, you are throwing everything Jeshua did on the cross back in the face of the Father. Because He
believed that “when you were dead in sin and trespasses” Ephesians 2:1, you were still precious
enough for His son to die for you. If you are not convinced of that love, then reread this story again.
Repent, draw near and come into a deeper relationship with your YHWH. If you need a confidential
meeting, just book a time with us but do not delay. The choice is yours, your time on Earth is limited,
so don’t lose another second! You are worthy and You are loved! So do the deep dive – ACTIVATE
NOW! Or connect with us for a personal prayer session now.

“Draw near to YHWH and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify
your hearts, you double-minded.”
James 4:8