My first experience of the Throne room was unequivocally the most physically, emotionally, and
spiritually taxing encounter of my life (and I have been through a lot). As stated in the disclaimer:
everything done in heaven is always done through Jeshua Ha’ Mashiach. I had trained myself that
when he asked me what I wanted to do, I would respond with whatever he wanted. He obviously
wanted to take me to the Throne room. So, before I knew it, I had ascended. Every cell in my body
was bombarded by His GLORY! I couldn’t tolerate the light. I couldn’t fathom the sounds of worship
that were simultaneously, unnaturally, so deep and so high that my ears felt as if they had
submerged into my throat, and I could hardly breathe. Additionally, the pulsation of the frequency
of all living beings worshiping our creator on the throne was simply too much for me to handle.

Just as a mole burrows deep into the ground, I fell to my face weeping and painfully (not that
there is pain in heaven but again no adjectives can justify the intensity of the emotions that I was
feeling) shoved my face as deep into the sand as I possibly could. I felt, what I now know is, an angel
picked me up by the scruff of my neck. I was as stiff as a tack being elevated horizontally in the air.

I laugh now at what a site this must have been for the heavenly hosts, but boy was I glad there
are no toilets in heaven! Then before I knew it, the blinding light became sallow, and I glided onto
Pappa’s knee, still faced down. He bounced me on His knee and patted my back as the infant I was
and then, no longer in panic mode, I began to think again. You guessed it, it was a negative thought,
and I was booted out of heaven. This was my first message painted of hundreds at the throne room
and all I could think of was how gracious our MAGNIFICENT Creator was to dull himself down for his
lowly creation to enjoy just a second with her Maker.

“Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor and thanks to him who sits
on the throne and who lives for ever and ever, the twenty-four elders fall down before him who
sits on the throne and worship him who lives forever and ever. They lay their crowns before the
throne and say: “You are worthy, our Lord and YHWH, to receive glory and honor and power, for
you created all things, and by your will, they were created and have their being.”
Revelation 4:9-11